Friday, December 27, 2019

🏳️‍🌈✝️🔻 HIV - Below the Surface



Below the surface, living with HIV can mean isolation, depression, social stigma, and side effects of medication. There's so much more to life with HIV than meets the eye. We know that HIV comes with symptoms, medication side effects, relationship challenges, and emotional turmoil, much of which appears invisible to outsiders. Most people don't see half of what we experience.

Blurred Vision
Cardiovascular Complications
Dermatological Complications
Family Stress
Internal Struggles
Joint Pain
Loss of Confidence
Loss of Mobility
Mouth Ulcers
Muscular/Skeletal Issues
Neurological pains
Night Sweats
Overall Weakness
Relationship Challenges
Sleepless Nights/Insomnia
Suicidal Thoughts
Swollen Lymph Glands
Weight Gain/Loss

These are just a handful of symptoms people living with HIV might have. Everyone who has HIV has a different story and different symptoms. Yes, these are a lot of the common symptoms people living with HIV could have with each other but there are so many more.

Because we don't look "ill" people forget that every day we are constantly at battle with the virus that shakes us to our very core and they all think that because we are on medication  that our life is suddenly back to where it was before we got HIV.

There are days when you just don't think you have the strength to go on with the simple tasks of the day... laundry, grocery shopping, meal prep and so on…

It is hard to deal with people who say they “understand” when they do not. People need to learn how to communicate with each other better. Unless you are going through the same thing as the other person you cannot understand what is going on in their life.  You can empathize with them but you will never understand.

Have you ever heard someone say, "That's just semantics?" Basically, they're saying you're picking apart the meaning of a word to draw a different conclusion but it all means the same thing. It's possible the person saying, "It's just semantics," is wrong, though.

I was told recently “That’s just semantics”, when I a person that they could not possibly understand what I go through on a daily basis living with HIV and all the side effects of the medications I was taking, because they said they understood what I was going through when really they were just trying to be empathetic.

Those words really felt like an attack on me because I was trying to get them to understand why I get offended when people say they understand what I am going through when they themselves have never dealt with a life changing illness of their own.

If you know someone who is living with HIV please learn to choose your words wisely because you do not know what they are going through at that very moment of your encounter with them and your words could be the catalysis that helps send that person over the edge.

If you are living with HIV and need emotional  support there are many organizations that are run by people who are living with HIV or who are sympathetic to people living with HIV who are there to help you.

National HIV/AIDS Hotline
Each service has its own telephone number--English-speaking, 1-800-342-2437; Spanish-speaking, 1-800-344-7432; TTY service for the deaf, 1-800-243-7889.

CDC Support

If you are friends with someone who becomes HIV Positive, please keep in contact with them. Those of us who have lived a long time with HIV have gone through the loss of friends because they stop calling or coming around because they do not understand all the changes that are taking place in our lives as HIV begins to destroy us from the inside out.

Thank you for reading and I pray you will now have a better understanding of how HIV affects a person well beyond what you can see on the surface.


Wednesday, November 20, 2019

🏳️‍🌈✝️🔻 Black and White Matters of the Heart



It is with a heavy heart that I am writing this article today. On Tuesday, November 19, 2019 my mother and her husband were in a car accident because a woman ran a stop sign and keep pushing their vehicle trying to get away. My Mom called me shaken because she had just dropped me off and this accident happen one block from my house. Of course I rushed to the scene to make sure my Mom and her husband were okay. Let me pause right here to say that my behavior at the scene of this accident did NOT reflect the Lord Jesus Christ and for that I am ashamed to my core.

When I got there I asked my Mom if she was okay and begin asking her questions about the accident. I asked if the person was just not paying attention or what because of the condition of the scene and my Mom’s truck in comparison to the other drivers car who t-boned them.

While I was questioning my mother a young girl who happened to be black turned around and gave me a go to hell look. I asked her why she was looking at me like that and if she was the driver. At that she began to cuss me out saying I was accusing her for the accident when that is not what I was doing at all. I just wanted to make sure the other driver was okay. She walked away from the scene so I was attending to my Mom when she came back yelling on the phone about me so I went over to apologize for offending her and she told me in her words, “Shut the F up you F’ing Cracker.” I should have kept my mouth shut but a HATE that I have never felt in my life welled up inside me and I yelled at her and asked her why she would call me that when I just wanted to apologize if I made her uncomfortable and she continued to yell at me and a Black cop got on the scene while this was happening went straight to the Black Woman who hit my Mom and her husband and was repeating over and over do you want me to call an ambulance. Did not ever once ask if anyone else was hurt – The PEOPLE SHE HIT!!! He stopped long enough to yell at me and tell me to shut my mouth. I told him the girl was the one who was keeping on at which he bucked up in my face and asked me who the hell I was. So I naturally bucked up back at him and told him I was the son of this woman. He told me if I was not in the accident to leave at which I said I will not leave because I will be right by mothers side. He turned to the girl and told her to shut up but she just kept being mouthy. I told my mom I had had enough and was going home before I got arrested. So I left.

Let me tell you this is one of the worst experiencing I have had with a Black Person.  Well except for the time one of the Black girls working for me one time when I sent her to my office for being hateful with customers. I asked her if she was okay because it was not like her to be like that with customers. At which point she said she did not need to tell me anything and called me a F’ing faggot. Of course I fired her on the spot. Anyway when this young Black girl called me a F’ing Cracker I lost my mind. It is a good thing God gives me strength in certain situations because I was ready to punch her and that Black cop in the throat for being so disrespectful.

I will tell you this much, if you expect RESPECT then you need to show RESPECT and that goes for those BEHIND THE BADGE also. You know I have cousins who are mixed and I would never use the N Word to describe them they are just my cousins. I don’t even refer to them as my black cousins. This girl and this cop caused me to use the N Word talking to my mother and it made me sick to my stomach. I have cried and begged God today to forgive me for even entertaining those thoughts. Obviously I have been affected by the HATRED this horrific administration has caused in our country.

When a young person comes at you with slang words like the N word or Cracker or any of the other horrible words like FAGGOT you need to remember it is because they have NOT been brought up in a home filled with the LOVE of JESUS CHRIST and you need to show them as much love as they will allow or just walk away and pray they will some way find JESUS.


It is time for AMERICA to heal from all this HATE and the ONLY WAY IT WILL HAPPEN is if this country will REPENT OF ITS SINS and TURN TO JESUS CHRIST!!!

I am sick just writing this article but I felt I needed to get it out of my system and to let everyone know that I am only human and I too am capable of thoughts so evil that it nauseates me. I am praying God will cleanse me of this evil thorn that is being driven into my heart and the hearts of all Americans. I need more of JESUS and HIS WORD now more than ever because the EVIL in this world is GROWING STRONGER the closer it gets to JESUS’ RETURN.

In one Scripture that is often misunderstood, Matthew11:12, Jesus said: "And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffereth violence, and the violent take it by force." 

The wording of this verse must be taken in light of all Scripture. It means, violence; it calls for violence and assures that the violent take the Kingdom by force. This truth must be rightly understood. Jesus affirms that to gain entrance into the Kingdom will be by force. The powers of hell will try to prevent the salvation of a soul. God is the Victor. But, when you enter into God's Kingdom, every opposition of hell will be brought against that soul. From the beginning, a born again soul realizes that God's dealings with him were not just for his redemption, but he now has the realization of his new life and how he must guard and fight against every attempt to rob him of this treasure. That individual will fight every prejudice and bias leveled against him. 

This is why we must take up the full armor of God daily so we can fight these fiery arrows Satan and his demonic forces are throwing our way each day.

Ephesians 6:10-18

In conclusion, be strong in the Lord [draw your strength from Him and be empowered through your union with Him] and in the power of His [boundless] might. Put on the full armor of God [for His precepts are like the splendid armor of a heavily-armed soldier], so that you may be able to [successfully] stand up against all the schemes and the strategies and the deceits of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this [present] darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly (supernatural) places. Therefore, put on the complete armor of God, so that you will be able to [successfully] resist and stand your ground in the evil day [of danger], and having done everything [that the crisis demands], to stand firm [in your place, fully prepared, immovable, victorious]. So stand firm and hold your ground, having tightened the wide band of truth (personal integrity, moral courage) around your waist and having put on the breastplate of righteousness (an upright heart), and having strapped on your feet the gospel of peace in preparation [to face the enemy with firm-footed stability and the readiness produced by the good news]. Above all, lift up the [protective] shield of faith with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. With all prayer and petition pray [with specific requests] at all times [on every occasion and in every season] in the Spirit, and with this in view, stay alert with all perseverance and petition [interceding in prayer] for all God’s people.”

To ALL my brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus who have dealt with any kind of RACISM I pray that you will take up the full armor of God so you will be able to fight the HATE Satan will try to manifest in your life to bring you down.

To all my Black brothers and Sisters in Christ Jesus I know you know all too well what it feels like to be discriminated against because of the color of your skin. I ask that you too will forgive this Pastor for feeling the hate he had in his heart during this horrible experience. Know that I have no HATE towards any of God’s Rainbow of Children. It makes me sick to see how low Satan has drug this country with his instruments in Washington D.C. I just pray that God’s people will WAKE UP and actually ask God to help them pick the RIGHT man or woman to help bring healing to our country. We made great strides during the Obama Presidency only to have a White Supremacy come in and tear it all down in less than 4 years.

Before all those who follow me I ask God to forgive me for the HATE filled thoughts I had and I ask God to cover my mind with His Holy Spirit so only thoughts that are like Jesus Christ will fill my mind, my heart and my mouth. In Jesus Name I ask, Amen.

I ask that all my followers please keep the older Black woman, my Mom, and my Step Dad in your prayers for healing to their bodies which were injured in this accident. Pray with me that our Heavenly Father will give the woman who caused this wreck to have peace of mind because she was so shook up. I also pray that my Mom will find peace because she is still shook up pretty bad today.

Blessings and Peace,

Rainbow Pastor David

Tuesday, September 17, 2019

🏳️‍🌈✝️🔻 The HORROR that LGBTQTI+ FACE from the "CHURCH"

Unless the "Church" is accepting you just the way God created you, it is best to STAY AWAY.
There are many "Churches" today that are waking up to the TRUTH -



When I see stories like this it makes my blood boil. It is time the "Church" quit using the Bible against people and start using the Bible to SAVE PEOPLE!!! The BIBLE is the good news that needs to be taught NOT hammered. The Bible's you have in your homes right now have been mistranslated so many times throughout history that they hardly contain much of the ORIGINAL TRUTH that God revealed to those who followed Him.

It makes me SICK that these two had to experience the HORROR of CHURCH FALSE TEACHINGS because the PASTOR is NOT TEACHING THE TRUTH of GODS WORD!!!

When you read the statement from the Church at the end of the article I want you to know that it is a complete and utter LIE. I grew up in the Assembly of God Church and I personally experienced the horrors of the church trying to cast out those horrible "DEMONS" of HOMOSEXUALITY!!!

You can read part of my personal story here:Love and Understanding

Written by Aaron Brilbeck, News 9 in Oklahoma
BLACKWELL, Oklahoma - A same-sex couple said they were attacked at a Blackwell church and one was held down, while church goers tried to, quote, “pray the gay away.” 

Gary Gardner of Blackwell said he and his boyfriend, Sean Cormie, were invited to The First Assembly of God Church by Cormie’s family. Gardner said everything started okay. Then, the pastor asked them to approach the alter.

“A lot of Sean’s family came over and started praying on us, and church members started praying on us and started getting louder and louder and louder,” said Gardner.

Gardner said he started to leave, then was pushed out by other church members while Cormie was held inside and slammed to the ground by his stepfather, who also attends church there.

“Sort of picked him up and body slammed him over and started praying on him, and when they were doing that, Sean ended up with marks on his arms a black eye and sort of blacked out,” said Gardner.

Cormie added, “They started holding me down praying in tongues, which I just started crying.”

Cormie was left bruised. He said the group about 12 to 15 people, eventually let him up.

Sean Cormie

“My sister convinced them to let me go,” said Cormie. “She held my face and said, ‘God is in you speak, speak, speak Sean. This is not their judgment this is God’s judgment. They don’t have the power of God in their minds.’”

The church released a statement saying, “This began as a family matter that escalated. Our church would never condone restraint of any person unless they were engaged in violent activity. There is much more to this incident, and we are cooperating fully with law enforcement to hopefully bring all of the facts to light as a rush to judgment is not in anyone's best interest.”

“We want the church shut down,” said Gardner. “If they’re going to treat people like that, they don’t need to be open.”

Please join with me in praying for these two men and the many men and women around the world who are being TORTURED because of who they love.

Heavenly Father we ask that you send Angels to protect Your Rainbow Children from the HATE of the modern "Church" who is using Your against people instead of using it to share the GOOD NEWS. We ask this in the precious name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

In Christ Service,