Here are a couple a poems I wrote a few years ago about LIVING with HIV

David Moorman

 11/29/2016

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As World AIDS DAY rapidly approaches I remember back how I felt the first couple of years. It is hard to explain to someone who has never been told "YOU HAVE HIV" or "YOUR TEST IS POSITIVE" the overwhelming feeling of DOOM that floods every fiber of your body at that very moment. It is like time stands still for what seems an eternity as your mind trys so hard to wrap itself around what you have just been told. NO, It is no longer a DEATH SENTENCE however IT IS A LIFE SENTENCE that you have to learn to deal with on a day to day basis.

I know that if I did not have a PERSONAL relationship with my Heavenly Father it would have been a very difficult time for me, because I lost a Great-Uncle to AIDS complications when I was younger. I was always so scared that I would some day go through what he went through before he died. My Grandmother made me promise her I would always be safe, so I did not end up like her brother Charles. Well, I did not keep that promise and I was so scared to have her find out I was Positive but after I explained about the medications and stuff she is a little more at ease. I know she and the rest of my family worry about me, but I am in the Lord's Hands and so ready to be with HIM anytime HE is ready to take me home. 

Thank God I had a wonderful family and a wonderful Partner that saw me through the most difficult times the first couple of years. I really thought  I was going to lose it at times but they helped keep me grounded. You can read more about my journey living with HIV in my blog post entitled  Love and Understanding.

Now 8 years later I still feel the STING of being told I have HIV, but  I know that I am going to live as long as I adhere to my medication and keep the virus under control. I have a whole host of complications now from all different health issues caused from the HIV and the medication but I am managing right now. I have days just like everyone else I know, that I want to just give up the fight, but I keep my eyes on My God and He helps me get through those times. I pray that everyone have a wonderful holiday this year and know that NO MATTER WHAT WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS NEW JOURNEY if we KEEP A POSITIVE OUTLOOK on the ROAD AHEAD..

Blessings and Peace,
David Moorman

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