06/10/2018
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“No one lights a lamp and then
puts it in a cellar or under a basket [hiding the light], but [instead it is put] on the lampstand, so that
those who come in may see the light. The eye is the lamp
of your body. When your eye is clear [spiritually perceptive, focused on God], your whole body also is full
of light
[benefiting from God’s precepts]. But when it is bad [spiritually blind], your body also is full of
darkness
[devoid of God’s word]. Be careful, therefore, that the light that is in
you is not darkness. So if your whole body is illuminated, with no dark part, it
will be entirely bright [with light], as when the lamp gives you light with its bright rays.” Luke:
33-36
You never know ahead of time when God is
going to use you to bring His Light into someone elses life, therefore the
scripture to remind us to always be ready day or night 2
Timothy 4:1-2;
I solemnly charge you in the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who
is to judge the living and the dead, and by His appearing and His kingdom: preach
the word [as an official messenger]; be ready when the time is right and even when it is not [keep your sense
of urgency, whether the opportunity seems favorable or unfavorable, whether
convenient or inconvenient, whether welcome or unwelcome]; correct [those who
err in doctrine or behavior], warn [those who sin], exhort and encourage [those who are growing
toward spiritual maturity], with inexhaustible patience and [faithful]
teaching.
In every situation we find ourselves in, we
must always remember God may use that moment in time as a witnessing moment to
someone who is in need. You may be at your worst or lowest and that may be the
time God uses for you to be a light to someone else.
So remember these scriptures during those
times:
Do everything without murmuring or questioning [the providence of God],
so that you may prove yourselves to be blameless and guileless, innocent and uncontaminated, children of God
without blemish in the midst of a [morally] crooked and [spiritually] perverted
generation, among whom you are seen as bright lights [beacons shining out
clearly] in the world [of darkness], holding out and offering to everyone the word of
life, so that in the day of Christ I will have reason to rejoice greatly
because I did not run [my race] in vain nor labor without result. Philippians
2:14-16
For that is what the Lord has commanded us, saying,“I have placed You as a light for the Gentiles, So that You may bring [the message of eternal] salvation to the end of the earth.” Acts 13:47
But whoever practices truth
[and does what is right—morally, ethically, spiritually] comes
to the Light, so that his works may be plainly shown to be what they
are—accomplished in God [divinely
prompted, done with God’s help, in dependence on Him].” John
3:21
The Lord
reminded me on June 9th 2018 just how BIG He is and how He lets
things happen sometimes in our life so we can be a blessing to someone who has
been seeking answers from Him.
On this day I
had been feeling a bit off most of the day. As most of you know I am living
this part of my journey living with HIV and all the numerous complications that
can come alone with having HIV. One of those many things has been my heart and
blood pressure. On this day I had run out of one of my main blood pressure
medications because of delivery timing from the pharmacy. Yes, as anyone else
in my situation would do, I complained and grumbled to myself about it just a
little. I do still have an old script that had recently been filled of another
blood pressure medication I was no longer taking so I used that one in place of
the one I was out of that day. The last blood pressure reading I took for the
day around 6pm was great. It was 111/58; however my heart rate was quite
elevated for me being 85. I felt a little swimmy in my head but went on doing
what I needed so Scott and I could go out to eat. I fed the dogs, let them out
and then I was ready to go. By the time I did all that my blood pressure had
started to decline quite rapidly so I decided to take it before we left to go
to eat. The reading at this time 6:51pm was 62/37 with a heart rate of 72. This
should have been the first warning sign that something was going wrong. My
blood pressure never drops that fast after taking medication. I am usually
waiting hours for my blood pressure to come down to normal ranges after taking
my medication. Just the two days before my blood pressure had been staying up
in the 160’s and keeping nauseated to the point I could not keep any food down.
It is now 7pm on
July 9th and we are off to eat Mexican food because we knew that
would help bring my blood pressure up {because of all the sodium}. On the way
to the restaurant my hearing started going, my eyesight was growing dim and I
just did not feel right. I kept telling Scott I could not hear him and I could
not see. By the time we arrived at the restaurant it was between 7:15pm and
7:30pm I was not feeling right at all. As I got out of the car and stood up I
felt my lights going out. Scott said I told him three times I did not feel
right as he watched my eyes glaze over and I hit the pavement. I remember
saying one time I did not feel right then opening my eyes to see the pavement
in my face. I was confused, scared, and still dizzy from the whole experience.
He ran into the restaurant for wet clothes to clean me up from the blood coming
out of my knee. After he helped me up we went on inside to eat. He told me I
kept passing out at the table so we got our food to go. He decided it was best
to get me to the ER to be checked and that is where I needed to be.
When I first
arrived I had no idea where I was or why I was there. My blood pressure had
bottomed out at 54/28 and they were pumping IV Fluid two bottles at time into
me. My first reality check was when I looked at the clock and it was 10pm.
Where had all the time gone? I really checked out at around 7:30pm and was just
now coming back to life.
At one point in
this evening of craziness, I was alone in my room with the nurse. Scott had
gone out to get my Mom because they were getting ready to take me back for
scans and x-rays. It was at that moment that seemed time stood still and it was
just me and the nurse and God. I remember asking the nurse if she was a
Christian, then the Lord took over. After what seemed to be an eternity,
although just moments in time I was finishing up my story as we both had tears
in our eyes. Mom came in the room asked me if I was okay because she could tell
I had been crying. All I could tell her was God is so good.
As the night
passed on the fluids began to work and I was back to my chatty self cutting up
with the staff and getting some good laughter in. All the tests had been done;
the results were looking good so the wonderful ER Doctor said I could go home
as long as I promised her I would not forget to eat and to drink lots of water
replacing some of the green tea I drink.
I left the ER
feeling so blessed that God allowed me the horrific, scary experience even if
it was just to see the smile through the teary eyes of that beautiful nurse.
On the way to
car I noticed a blue sheet of paper stapled to the back of my discharge paperwork.
It was a precious note from the awesome nurse God brought into my life that
evening. I want to share that note with you so you know how GREAT GOD our
creator is and so HE gets ALL the glory for all the things He had me say. I
have of course blocked out her name. I know that one day she may be reading
this and know who she is and that is all that really matters to me. God, my
wonderful nurse and me in that order because it was God who wanted to speak to
that nurse, I was just the always willing vessel.
I give God praise as I sit
here with tears rolling down my checks once more just thinking about how
TOTALLY AWESOME our LOVING GOD is and how much HE will use you if you just let
HIM take the controls. Thank you Heavenly Father for showing me one more time
how much you love and care for each of Your children’s needs.
God Bless you
all on this wonderful 10th day of June 2018.
Always and
forever in Christ Service,
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